Sunday, May 5, 2019

Dating Myself Day Three

Day 4 of 100 days of dating myself. Days of positive affirmation and giving myself grace.

 I attended a birthday celebration today. The Birthday boy turned four. He was so happy to be with  family and friends who one by one  come together to celebrate. Turning four is a big deal. From tonka trucks to tadpole fishing,fun was had by all. From Jesery Mikes sandwiches, Transformer Birthday cake and homemade cookies from Auntie S. It was such a treat to sit and take it all in.

I saw love today.



I saw laughter today.

I saw friends that turned into family today.

I saw sets of grandparents with admiration and love for their grandchildren today.

Humbly I saw life through the eyes of a four year old. A life of security, love , friends and family. I gave myself grace when I started to feel how I didn't give Julia, my daughter, that life growing up. She is 20 and was at the party with her fiance . They played, laughed and took it in as well. Funny how one little party could touch so many lives.

In this world of busyness it's nice to sit and see Gods handiwork . How he weaves us together as friends and family.

He gives us amazing gifts, every day. We just need to really see them.  We are like the transformer decorations that adorn the walls .
He transforms us, if we allow him into our lives. He really does.

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Thursday, May 2, 2019

Dating Myself Day Two

Day 2 of 100 days of dating myself. Days of positive affirmation and giving myself grace. Today I decided to take an extended lunch and attend The East County Prayer Lunch. I was so happy and excited to go and it did not disappoint. Hearing our East County Leaders not just speak yet pray boldly warmed my heart. Of course I took pictures of the stage. The flag and cross stood majestically in the back ground while our Leaders asked for prayer and were prayed over. Today I reflect on being present and seeing with a different set of eyes. I saw tenderness in a grandmas introduction of her grandbaby. She introduced me at her table as a Skyliner and Prayer Warrior. I knew with this 100 day assignment , I needed to accept that title and not say, Oh no....I'm not. I accepted it fully. I love praying. Today I heard and saw a man hurt for his city of Poway, CA . His cowboy hat sat firmly on his head with such an indescribable presence. He spoke from the heart and prayed with an even deeper hunger for unity and healing for his city. Today I saw a Father look across the church school yard lovingly at his teenage daughter playing with classmates She had no qualms of walking towards him for a hug. It's those little captured moments that matter. Today I saw 3 of Skyline Church Pastors at the luncheon . They are so good at their pastoral duties I wasn't surprised they were in attendance. They give amazing side-Christian hugs that I learned about 7 years ago. 😁 Their love for Christ and their community shines through their work at church. We are blessed to have them. On this National Day of Prayer I prayed for our City and our Country. Did my best to stay present. My mind tends to wonder in those crowded situations. I'm getting better. Getting out more. That's a start. #100daysofdatingrachelrosemercantile







Dating My Self Day One

Dating Myself Day One


Dating Myself Day One
Ok, today on this Day One of 100 I decide to take myself to lunch. I didnt want to appear as a cheap date so I splurged on a 3 mini taco combination with a beverage. Yup, went all out out! I even walked on this special occasion yet got stressed out over the stop lights only giving 5 seconds to gallop through the crosswalk like an fancy throughbred of a distinguished pedigree. Why does it feel like everyone is staring at you while your speed walking through the intersection? I wore my fancy new shoes on this special date. Overall had a nice time. I wanted dessert but didnt want to appear too hungry on the first date. Didn't want my date thinking I was always hungry. Or how I am always thinking of food.  I'm definitely not I'll just have a salad or a sliver of kale girl. I'm more of a meat and potatoes and carnitas girl. 🤷‍♀️
Dating Myself Day One
Ok, today on this Day One of 100 I decide to take myself to lunch. I didnt want to appear as a cheap date so I splurged on a 3 mini taco combination with a beverage. Yup, went all out out! I even walked on this special occasion yet got stressed out over the stop lights only giving 5 seconds to gallop through the crosswalk like an fancy throughbred of a distinguished pedigree. Why does it feel like everyone is staring at you while your speed walking through the intersection? I wore my fancy new shoes on this special date. Overall had a nice time. I wanted dessert but didnt want to appear too hungry on the first date. Didn't want my date thinking I was always hungry. Or how I am always thinking of food. I'm  I'm definitely not I'll just have a salad or a sliver of kale girl. I'm more of a meat and potatoes and carnitas girl. 🤷‍♀️
With all the said, dating yourself is seeing yourself the way others see you. Positive word affirmations . Knowing and feeling something sweet and good about yourself. I accepted the  assignment by Jill Oncall , well the challenge because it's hard to see yourself through the eyes of friends and loved ones.
My positives  thoughts today on this first date with myself is:
I have tiny feet , size 5 and they look cute in shoes . My friends tell me that all the time.
Let's see, wow this is harder than I thought.
I have good table manners in a social setting.
There you have it. I'm sure this will get easier as the weeks go by. My head goes with the whole prideful thing. It's a conditioning thing,right? Easier to compliment others than ourselves. I think we all need to work on this!

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Saturday, January 26, 2019

Finding Peace


Tell me what best describes you finding peace. Having peace?


What about being intentional ? How does that fit into your daily ritual? Your routine?


Friday, October 12, 2018

Weather Change - Merry Christmas !

I totally noticed the weather change. So yeah, Merry Christmas everyone. 🤣😂🤣🌲


Goodwill find to sobbing at the side of the road

I'm just driving along after finding a few blouses at Goodwill. My small group doesn't start till 6:30pm so I'm being adventurous and driving without Google maps 🤣Which I never do.  Not sure where I am or where I'm going.

 Then I see an area that looks familiar.Then, it happens, I pass by my Evie Heys's  old condo. I see it and immediatly start  to cry. To the point I  have to pull over and get a grip. I miss her.😭



 Don't get me wrong, God has blessed me with so many rich friendships, mentorships, an amazing accountability partner and  Sisters in Christ since she passed away. Yet.There was just one Evie. She was the first person I opened up to and trusted enough to tell my story at church. She made me still feel loved and didn't judge. She got me. She was my best friend. I miss her and her cute outfits. 💔

Life Motivators that make me laugh and smile